sourdough I'm not gonna give her level2/3 loads at first!

she's handled 12ga and didn't like it so I won't give her that level of pain again- she'll get the weighted set-up with soft-loads when I get started casting my own bullets. as for length of pull I don't know, she's tiny AND has short arms (proportional to her size) so we'll see tomorrow....
as for hunting situations... first deer I shot with my vtr I was hanging out of a tree and firing that rifle with one hand on the grip and trigger, the other hand was grasping the sling just below the forward swivel (elbow was hooked through some treestand camo net so I wouldn't fall out of the stand) and I was leaning almost completely out of the stand.... if I got hit in the face by the scope I sure didn't feel it, didn't see the muzzle flash from my muzzle brake, and saw everything that deer did while having his death fit in slow-motion.... thing is it was first light and very dark, I could barely even see it through the scope but when it went down I saw EVERYTHING crisp and clear, heard every sound, felt the wind like a barn-rooster (whatever it's called), felt the temp, atmospheric pressure, humidity, all of it at once and clearly- you feel everything in a collective and disassociative sense that'll totally numb you to pain or pleasure, you'll just FEEL. forget tantra, yoga and LSD if you're really desperate..... just go hunting and take a hard shot.. I bet the adrenaline would have you feeling so pumped you could be on the other end of the gun and not feel that either.
on the flip side, you do need to shoot with that same kind of focus when sighting in and when hunting, otherwise you're trusting luck and inconsistent technique. get into a focused, no an "altered state" or you won't be good enough to take an accurate shot when under pressure. buck fever isn't about bucks, it's about a lack of discipline. the recoil issue is a manifestation of the focus on the body but not the mind. you use your hands to hold the gun and pull the trigger but YOUR MIND places the shot. separate your thought and your sensations and just guide your breathe, guide your dominant hand and FEEL the shot but not the body aiming it. does that make sense to anyone or am I just being a nut (it's a shooting site, I'm in the right place either way right)?