
 i am a recent new member, and have enjoyed this site very much since the day it found me.   i am mostly into rimfire guns, and small game hunting , but having grown up on a farm and used to the outdoors life, i find i actually have lots of interests.   I am self employed in the midwest,  i have welding fabrication shop that speicalizes in industrial wood working machinery, but capable of doing a lot of other things.   My business burnt to the ground a few years ago, and i lost everything.  The day after my fire, my ex-wife and bookkeeper informed me that she let the insurance lapse, so ireally did lose it all.   I have been trying to rebuild ever since,  i have fulfilled obligations with customers and have worked hard to rebuild my customer base.   Yet i still get my but kicked daily.   In an effort to get back on my feet, i sold most all of my posssiions,  let the house go back to the bank,  moved into a single bedroom home without heat, air conditioning, cable tv, phone etc.   and have bared boned my personal life to the extremes to try to keep this business going.   I have basically done without my wages for quite some time so i could keep my employees and get back on my feet.   Recently the struggle has gotten worse.   I have lost my lease on the shop and looking for a new home,  i am able to make the payments , there are just other plans for the building.   And i have a couple of lawyers who wont stay off my back from some post fire finacial issues.   I am a christian and pray about this several times a day.   I know the lord loves me and wants me to be happy and content,  i just need help to get back on my feet.   I feel i have gone through all of this and having had cancer as a teenager for  reason, but am still confused as to what the reason is.   I ask for your prayers to help me get back on my feet finacially,  to help me secure a new place to conduct business, and for my health to hold up so that i can accomplish gods will.   i honestly dont think he wants me to quit and walk away,  so i am very confused.    Your thoughts and prayers would be most appreciated.
duke21